Thoughts on the past and Present

My Dear Friends: I know that it has been a while since I last spoke with you and have yet to print more of the correspondence between myself and Anna and Michael Morales and Jullie Cullen. Please just bere with me. I have been so tired recently. Anna has been in my thoughts and in my prayers. How I have prayed so earnestly for my friend, that the burden of her judgement is not laid upon her shoulders but ibtsead are placed upon mine. For in the end, is it not right that we should bare the burdens of those we came to love? Is that not love? I remember back in June and July of 2007, shortly after the "verdict" from the Grand Jury, I wrote to Anna and begged her to tel the truth, the truth she shared with me on that April/May Saturday morning in 2007, the truth about what happened to the nine patients on the seventh floor of Memorial Hospital. I remember telling her that in my Fathers Kingdom there was no such thing as judgement or condemnation. That in His Kingdom there is only LOVE and that He loved her very much. I remember I also explained to her that the public would understand also but only if they heard it from her. But if they found out that other way, there would be both judgement and condemnation for while there is no such thing as judgement or condemnation in Gods Kingdom, there is both judgement and condemnation in this world. But this world is not the same and Our Teacher has overcome the world!! I guess she decided not to tell the truth and in not telling the truth, she has made all of you and those who love her, an accessory to her crime. And so I continue to write to her, to let Anna know that I have not only told her the truth, but continue to be a constatnt friend....

My Dear Friends: I know that it has been a while since I last spoke with you and have yet to print more of the correspondence between myself and Anna and Michael Morales and Jullie Cullen. Please just bere with me. I have been so tired recently. Anna has been in my thoughts and in my prayers. How I have prayed so earnestly for my friend, that the burden of her judgement is not laid upon her shoulders but ibtsead are placed upon mine. For in the end, is it not right that we should bare the burdens of those we came to love? Is that not love? I remember back in June and July of 2007, shortly after the "verdict" from the Grand Jury, I wrote to Anna and begged her to tel the truth, the truth she shared with me on that April/May Saturday morning in 2007, the truth about what happened to the nine patients on the seventh floor of Memorial Hospital. I remember telling her that in my Fathers Kingdom there was no such thing as judgement or condemnation. That in His Kingdom there is only LOVE and that He loved her very much. I remember I also explained to her that the public would understand also but only if they heard it from her. But if they found out that other way, there would be both judgement and condemnation for while there is no such thing as judgement or condemnation in Gods Kingdom, there is both judgement and condemnation in this world. But this world is not the same and Our Teacher has overcome the world!! I guess she decided not to tell the truth and in not telling the truth, she has made all of you and those who love her, an accessory to her crime. And so I continue to write to her, to let Anna know that I have not only told her the truth, but continue to be a constatnt friend....

My Dear Friends: I know that it has been a while since I last spoke with you and have yet to print more of the correspondence between myself and Anna and Michael Morales and Jullie Cullen. Please just bere with me. I have been so tired recently. Anna has been in my thoughts and in my prayers. How I have prayed so earnestly for my friend, that the burden of her judgement is not laid upon her shoulders but ibtsead are placed upon mine. For in the end, is it not right that we should bare the burdens of those we came to love? Is that not love? I remember back in June and July of 2007, shortly after the "verdict" from the Grand Jury, I wrote to Anna and begged her to tel the truth, the truth she shared with me on that April/May Saturday morning in 2007, the truth about what happened to the nine patients on the seventh floor of Memorial Hospital. I remember telling her that in my Fathers Kingdom there was no such thing as judgement or condemnation. That in His Kingdom there is only LOVE and that He loved her very much. I remember I also explained to her that the public would understand also but only if they heard it from her. But if they found out that other way, there would be both judgement and condemnation for while there is no such thing as judgement or condemnation in Gods Kingdom, there is both judgement and condemnation in this world. But this world is not the same and Our Teacher has overcome the world!! I guess she decided not to tell the truth and in not telling the truth, she has made all of you and those who love her, an accessory to her crime. And so I continue to write to her, to let Anna know that I have not only told her the truth, but continue to be a constatnt friend....

I often find myself wondering if people know and understand just how much they are LOVED. I see so much pain and agony I wonder......if they only knew that they are LOVED, that everything they ever did in their lives means nothing when compared to the LOVE that awaits them. Perhaps if they understood this they would not despair but instead smile and laugh for what awaits them....Perhaps then they might find joy in the moment and peace of heart....peace of heart...my dear friend Anna, how I have often wished and hoped that you understand this.....I have always been your friend even at those times when things might have appeared to be different and when all your supporters have forgotten I will still be there....a friend indeed.....and how I have often hoped that you will at least remember the words I have so often given to you.....be kind, be gentle and above all else please be soft spokan.....for whether you understand or not Anna, I promise you, these words will save your life....for do you remember what was said in the beginning...why is it that with all your education, all your learning, that you cannot remember...so I will remember for you....in the begining WAS the WORD and the WORD was with God.....now do you remember Anna....and perhaps the day is coming when you and I can sit beneath the spreading branches of that Tree of Life...how I have often looked forward to that eventuality....the chance to tell you all those things I wished to tell you...but the time was not yet but is later to come....I know its hrd to understand but just remember Anna that I told you the truth.....be kind, be gentle, be soft spokan...and I will see you later sitting beneath the brances of the Tree of Life...I promise....so just beleive Anna...just beleive.....

As days pass into weeks and the weeks into months I have often asked myself what presicely did I learn from my conversations with Anna and Michael and Julie. I have often found myself wondering about the question. And the answers are always the same. The most important thing I learned from this dreadful experience is that sometimes very kind and very gentle and very soft spokan individuals find themselves in horrible situations and in those horrible situations act in ways they would not normally act. I think that is the most important thing I learned from this experience. And the second is simply this: when you go in search of an answer to a question, make sure you want to know the answer. Sometimes the answer is not what you expected and then it becomes a revalation. Anna for example, the Anna I came to know, is a very kind and gentle person who has over the years worked very hard to help heal her patients. The fact that on one horrible morning in a hospital without water, without air conditioning and without basic sanitation, made a decision that resulted in the immediate or near immediate deaths of many patients, in no way reflects her dedication as a doctor. I have always maintained that as far as I am concerned, Anna is and always will be a kind and gentle person. I can only hope that in her heart of hearts she comes to know and understand just how LOVED she really is and that in my Fathers Kingdom there really is no such thing as JUDGEMENT or CONDEMNATION but rather there is only LOVE and that she is LOVED indeed.

How Much My Friend Anna Is Loved

I am sorry that I have not posted anything yet. I am sure there are perhaps some readers who are wondering why I have not posted anything in some time. Well, its certainly a legitimate question. I still have many correspondence to publish as well as an annotated chronology. I guess the answer is that I have been so tired. Everytime I think about posting I just get so tired. This whole thing has haunted me now for years. I worry about Anna as well as the victims surviving family members. There is something I wanted to notate. I think if you look back in the posts you should see the third  email I sent Anna. This was sent before I really had the chance to get to know her and was as much a result of what I did not know about her at that time. I remember when I wrote the email I was angry with her. I beleived what I had read regarding what happened at the hospital because there was basically to much detailed information for the incident not to have occured. But it is easy to be angry at someone you do not know. As time went by and we had more conversations I found myself becoming less and less angry at Anna. I eventually came to know Anna as a very kind and gentle person and that of course makes what happened even more terrible to comprehend. There is not a day that goes by that I do not somehow remember what happened at the hospital that terrible morning. I guess what I would like readers to know is that the person I came to understand is a very kind and gentle person and that the contemplated deaths of the patients on the seventh floor was not so much an act of crime but rather an act of "love." And that is of course what makes the whole thing so much more difficult to reconsile. Since when did the killing of human beings been considered an act of "love" rather than an act of "murder." Know I understand that there are many who will argue that the patients where all terminally ill and about to die anyway. I wish I could say that they are correct but the truth of the matter is that most of the patients where in no way determined to be terminally ill and near death. But that is not what i struggle with. I cannot come to terms with the reality for Anna was that killing the patients was in fact an act of "love." You know Anna has never apologised for what happened at the hospital. And you want to know why. Because in her mind she did absolutely nothing wrong, that the killing of all the patients on the seventh floor was not an act of murder but was in her mind an act of love. If that is indeed the case then she would argue that there was nothing to apologies for. And yet since then she has sought redemption in working in a hospital in Baton Rouge working with the most difficult cases of cancer. Have you ever wondered why she no longer works at the renamed Memorial Hospital and why she does not work at Charity Hospital or for Oshner. I used to tell her all the time that in my Fathers Kingdom there was no such thing as Judgement nor Condemnation, that there was only Love. I guess that in the "long" run I came to love my friend and that is what makes all of this so difficult.....I wonder if Anna knows that she cannot work toward Redemption, that in reality it is a "gift" already given. I used to tell her how much the father loves her. In my heart of hearts I hope Anna has come to know just how mucg the Teacher loves her. I hope she knows. I really do....

How Much My Friend Anna Is Loved

I am sorry that I have not posted anything yet. I am sure there are perhaps some readers who are wondering why I have not posted anything in some time. Well, its certainly a legitimate question. I still have many correspondence to publish as well as an annotated chronology. I guess the answer is that I have been so tired. Everytime I think about posting I just get so tired. This whole thing has haunted me now for years. I worry about Anna as well as the victims surviving family members. There is something I wanted to notate. I think if you look back in the posts you should see the third  email I sent Anna. This was sent before I really had the chance to get to know her and was as much a result of what I did not know about her at that time. I remember when I wrote the email I was angry with her. I beleived what I had read regarding what happened at the hospital because there was basically to much detailed information for the incident not to have occured. But it is easy to be angry at someone you do not know. As time went by and we had more conversations I found myself becoming less and less angry at Anna. I eventually came to know Anna as a very kind and gentle person and that of course makes what happened even more terrible to comprehend. There is not a day that goes by that I do not somehow remember what happened at the hospital that terrible morning. I guess what I would like readers to know is that the person I came to understand is a very kind and gentle person and that the contemplated deaths of the patients on the seventh floor was not so much an act of crime but rather an act of "love." And that is of course what makes the whole thing so much more difficult to reconsile. Since when did the killing of human beings been considered an act of "love" rather than an act of "murder." Know I understand that there are many who will argue that the patients where all terminally ill and about to die anyway. I wish I could say that they are correct but the truth of the matter is that most of the patients where in no way determined to be terminally ill and near death. But that is not what i struggle with. I cannot come to terms with the reality for Anna was that killing the patients was in fact an act of "love." You know Anna has never apologised for what happened at the hospital. And you want to know why. Because in her mind she did absolutely nothing wrong, that the killing of all the patients on the seventh floor was not an act of murder but was in her mind an act of love. If that is indeed the case then she would argue that there was nothing to apologies for. And yet since then she has sought redemption in working in a hospital in Baton Rouge working with the most difficult cases of cancer. Have you ever wondered why she no longer works at the renamed Memorial Hospital and why she does not work at Charity Hospital or for Oshner. I used to tell her all the time that in my Fathers Kingdom there was no such thing as Judgement nor Condemnation, that there was only Love. I guess that in the "long" run I came to love my friend and that is what makes all of this so difficult.....I wonder if Anna knows that she cannot work toward Redemption, that in reality it is a "gift" already given. I used to tell her how much the father loves her. In my heart of hearts I hope Anna has come to know just how mucg the Teacher loves her. I hope she knows. I really do....

I am sorry that I have not posted anything yet. I am sure there are perhaps some readers who are wondering why I have not posted anything in some time. Well, its certainly a legitimate question. I still have many correspondence to publish as well as an annotated chronology. I guess the answer is that I have been so tired. Everytime I think about posting I just get so tired. This whole thing has haunted me now for years. I worry about Anna as well as the victims surviving family members. There is something I wanted to notate. I think if you look back in the posts you should see the third  email I sent Anna. This was sent before I really had the chance to get to know her and was as much a result of what I did not know about her at that time. I remember when I wrote the email I was angry with her. I beleived what I had read regarding what happened at the hospital because there was basically to much detailed information for the incident not to have occured. But it is easy to be angry at someone you do not know. As time went by and we had more conversations I found myself becoming less and less angry at Anna. I eventually came to know Anna as a very kind and gentle person and that of course makes what happened even more terrible to comprehend. There is not a day that goes by that I do not somehow remember what happened at the hospital that terrible morning. I guess what I would like readers to know is that the person I came to understand is a very kind and gentle person and that the contemplated deaths of the patients on the seventh floor was not so much an act of crime but rather an act of "love." And that is of course what makes the whole thing so much more difficult to reconsile. Since when did the killing of human beings been considered an act of "love" rather than an act of "murder." Know I understand that there are many who will argue that the patients where all terminally ill and about to die anyway. I wish I could say that they are correct but the truth of the matter is that most of the patients where in no way determined to be terminally ill and near death. But that is not what i struggle with. I cannot come to terms with the reality for Anna was that killing the patients was in fact an act of "love." You know Anna has never apologised for what happened at the hospital. And you want to know why. Because in her mind she did absolutely nothing wrong, that the killing of all the patients on the seventh floor was not an act of murder but was in her mind an act of love. If that is indeed the case then she would argue that there was nothing to apologies for. And yet since then she has sought redemption in working in a hospital in Baton Rouge working with the most difficult cases of cancer. Have you ever wondered why she no longer works at the renamed Memorial Hospital and why she does not work at Charity Hospital or for Oshner. I used to tell her all the time that in my Fathers Kingdom there was no such thing as Judgement nor Condemnation, that there was only Love. I guess that in the "long" run I came to love my friend and that is what makes all of this so difficult.....I wonder if Anna knows that she cannot work toward Redemption, that in reality it is a "gift" already given. I used to tell her how much the father loves her. In my heart of hearts I hope Anna has come to know just how mucg the Teacher loves her. I hope she knows. I really do....

I am sorry that I have not posted anything yet. I am sure there are perhaps some readers who are wondering why I have not posted anything in some time. Well, its certainly a legitimate question. I still have many correspondence to publish as well as an annotated chronology. I guess the answer is that I have been so tired. Everytime I think about posting I just get so tired. This whole thing has haunted me now for years. I worry about Anna as well as the victims surviving family members. There is something I wanted to notate. I think if you look back in the posts you should see the third  email I sent Anna. This was sent before I really had the chance to get to know her and was as much a result of what I did not know about her at that time. I remember when I wrote the email I was angry with her. I beleived what I had read regarding what happened at the hospital because there was basically to much detailed information for the incident not to have occured. But it is easy to be angry at someone you do not know. As time went by and we had more conversations I found myself becoming less and less angry at Anna. I eventually came to know Anna as a very kind and gentle person and that of course makes what happened even more terrible to comprehend. There is not a day that goes by that I do not somehow remember what happened at the hospital that terrible morning. I guess what I would like readers to know is that the person I came to understand is a very kind and gentle person and that the contemplated deaths of the patients on the seventh floor was not so much an act of crime but rather an act of "love." And that is of course what makes the whole thing so much more difficult to reconsile. Since when did the killing of human beings been considered an act of "love" rather than an act of "murder." Know I understand that there are many who will argue that the patients where all terminally ill and about to die anyway. I wish I could say that they are correct but the truth of the matter is that most of the patients where in no way determined to be terminally ill and near death. But that is not what i struggle with. I cannot come to terms with the reality for Anna was that killing the patients was in fact an act of "love." You know Anna has never apologised for what happened at the hospital. And you want to know why. Because in her mind she did absolutely nothing wrong, that the killing of all the patients on the seventh floor was not an act of murder but was in her mind an act of love. If that is indeed the case then she would argue that there was nothing to apologies for. And yet since then she has sought redemption in working in a hospital in Baton Rouge working with the most difficult cases of cancer. Have you ever wondered why she no longer works at the renamed Memorial Hospital and why she does not work at Charity Hospital or for Oshner. I used to tell her all the time that in my Fathers Kingdom there was no such thing as Judgement nor Condemnation, that there was only Love. I guess that in the "long" run I came to love my friend and that is what makes all of this so difficult.....I wonder if Anna knows that she cannot work toward Redemption, that in reality it is a "gift" already given. I used to tell her how much the father loves her. In my heart of hearts I hope Anna has come to know just how mucg the Teacher loves her. I hope she knows. I really do....